I have had a good time of it with God today and this morning continued to set the tone of what started yesterday(as far as good thoughts) through today.
Yesterday my mentor and I hung out. I miss and LOVE Letoyia and our hearts beat so much in tune. God has us talk to each other at just the right time. I love her. Well Letoyia is finally back in Atlanta after a tour of the world... and we saw each other face to face for the first time in over a year. It was so good! But before that time we talked on the phone about future stuff and she asked me an important question. "Nnena are you praying for and about every little decision." Like a ton of bricks the reality of my answer hit me. Um no guys I have not. I had gotten into a rut of doing and running and chasing. Add to my movement the fact that recently I was presented with so many options that my head was spinning. Well at that moment I realized I had to stop--I needed to stop. So I decided to spend today, Tuesday, with God and not do the job search, facebook, e-mail thing.
And the time was glorious... heck the conversation last night was glorious too... but I will get to that at another point.
Here is one nugget that I got from this morning laying in bed talking to God. So I was praying God where should I start reading now. I had just finished Nehemiah and I needed something new. Ruth was what was spoken to me. And guys I could not get past the first paragraph. Something that I had never realized before hit me square in the mouth. The story of Ruth begins with disobedience... and God turned around and redeemed both Ruth, her mother in law, and all of Israel with something that started out as disobedience.
Read it with me. They are in the land of Moab because of the famine. That in and of itself is not necessarily sin but what did the sons of Naomi do... they took Moabite women as their wives. Stop and think about that. God had forbidden taking foreign wives but hey they needed a woman (a man gets lonely. I get that) and these ladies looked like likely candidates. Stop and sit on that. It was sin to marry Ruth. Ruth who is the reason why David's parents had a place to hide when David was being chased (remember David's folks chilled out in Moab while he was on the run from King Saul). The redemption of Israel began with disobedience! Crazy! And God being sovereign did not stop it but took it for His own purpose. Soak on that. Right there in bed I started praying and exclaiming (quietly. my family already thinks i am strange). Think about it Boaz was redeeming not a true kinswoman but a foreigner. Crazy and awesome. And I could not help praying, "God redeem the things that I have done that are not right." (kids that list is long) Redeem the people I have hurt and provide a way towards salvation. And I started praying for some people that I care about and love and frankly have hurt. Oh I sat there and prayed. God cause my willfulness to be the doorway to salvation for him (xak). Let it be salvation for the people he is in contact with. Save him and liz. And then I started thanking God for placing liz in his life. God a giver of good gifts and she has been a good gift to him and him to her. And i just started praying and thinking and exclaiming. So yeah. Thank you God for your grace... grace given to all of us.
And the rest of the day was good. I realized that though I initially took the day off to get guidance the day was really about me sitting in God. Being with Him in a way I have not been. Thinking and talking with him. sitting in Him. soaking him up with no agenda. It has been a good day. A lot of stuff was worked through and prayed through and pushed out. A letter was written that will never get mailed.
There were other thoughts that went on but I am running out of time. I just wanted to share my excitement with you all.
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