What is she smoking?

I must be the most cracked out Christian I know. I woke up this morning with a thread of joy after being told no the night before. You remember the person I was curious about? Well turns out I he is seeing someone. And that hurt my pride a little (I wondered if my ability to read people was broken) and I went to bed. And I woke up this morning so full of joy and light… a distinct sense of excitement at what God is going to do next.

But maybe I woke up joyful because of other stuff from the night before, such as the fact that my girls study was whole again. And there is healing going on between the girls. Oh I thought my heart would explode when I saw B.O. embrace J. Thank you God for reconciliation and for growing my girls up.

Maybe because two nighst before BO and I talked… and prayed together and our relationship was restored. Maybe that is why I woke up with the thread of joy. Or maybe it is the fact that there is nothing holding me here and there is a freedom to go? Maybe… but full of joy I am and I don’t want to shake it.

If this is crack, smoke on, smoke on.