Naked and unashamed

Warning I am still processing these thoughts… but I wanted to get them out.

So last night I went to the book store chill out unwind and think. I found myself picking up two books. One was Bonhoeffer’s Ethics…

So I opened the book and started reading and Bonheffer got into a discussion about knowledge of good and evil and man's sense of shame. Anyways it would take too long to get into all that but let me toss at you the line that got me thinking.

“Instead of seeing God man sees himself. (Their eyes were opened’ Gen 3.7) He perceives that he is naked.”
This started a train of thought that I’ll just rip from my journal… remember what I said I am still processing this through.

It is funny. The first thing that struck me was the faith issue and I was reminded of Moses.
Instead of seeing God he saw his short comings and nakedness. God told him who He (God) was… and Chapter 4 is Moses seeing who he (moses) is.
God it rings true in my life and then what about Abraham when he sacrificed his son “he considered that God is able to raise people even from the dead...” His focus was not on himself but God… where is my focus. Do I look at myself and not God?

Is that what at core is wrong with us? We see ourselves and not God? We define our own version of good/right/righteous. We kill/hurt/evil motives/ our pride/ our sin/ our lack of belief and faith in God is because we see ourselves and not God? Think/what about Isaiah upon seeing God he ‘saw’ his own sin and the sin of the people. He was aware of his own sin and his people, heck really his sin. He had just reamed Israel about their own sin, he knew their sin but not his own and then he saw God.

“In the year of King Uzziah’s death I saw the Lord sitting on a throne, lofty and exalted, with the train of his robe filling the temple. Seraphim stood above Him, each having six wings; with two he covered his face, and with two he covered his feet, and with two he flew. And one called out to another and said. “Holy, holy, holy, is the Lord of hosts, the whole earth is full of His glory… Then I said,

“Woe is me for I am ruined because I am a man of unclean lips.”

(Lips that praised God, lips that told of destruction—how must he have felt when he realized those lips were unclean?)

“For my eyes have seen the King, the Lord of Host.”
And the burning coal touched his lips (like so many hard things that burn me) and cleaned his lips and iniquity, and his sin was forgiven

I rail against the pain and fight it while all the time embracing it. I know instinctively that it cleanses me, makes me holy, and at times I chase that to make me righteous and keep me righteous but again I am looking at that rather than God?
So how do I keep my eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of my faith?

That is next for me to figure out… to play with and explore. Again I feel on the brink of more change, change that is necessary that will make me like Him and give me kingdom vision. I see the sin in my life and the short comings so easily but do I see Him? Is that why I feel the short comings or have I made up my own law of right and wrong and I am using that to define what is good evil and what I should be?

I am looking forward to the cleansing.

I pray you are cleansed as well. :)