randi's break up, underwear made from tee-shirts, and old friends

You know old friends are the best. They know you well, they cut to the chase, they can see things clearly...
Today i got kicked out of the office. Long story, gag. But Sandra told me to take the rest of the day to make a doctor's appointment. Well in the middle of finding a place to go i called an old friend of mine that i had not gotten a chance to hang with this summer. Let me say for the record, i love trey maddox. I just do. I was so confused in my head and trying to filter things out and i talked with him and my mind is straight, focused and i can see clearly now. Don't get me wrong, my sabbatical with God this weekend is what really set my heart straight. But talking with trey helped it all make sense. i love that kid.

Underwear
By the way this is going to be a random blog of sorts... i have lots of Sandra stories.

Sandra is my boss at work. You might remember her from previous blogs. :) Her life and family are so random. Let's start with her father. He is a hypochondriac. Then God, with His sense of humor, decided to make this chinese man have a name that sounds like 'so sick' in english. Then his sign is cancer. I laughed at this. Well you can imagine that the daughter of 'so sick' is cautious about health issue. She is convinced that i might have rubella. Hence why i was kicked out of the office.

Well Sandra has very inventive people in her family. Her grand mother makes underwear out of old t-shirts. Yes you read that right, old tee shirts. Her grand mother feels that you should not be wasteful. So rather than make rags like other more wasteful people, she makes underwear. I thought that was great. The fact that they had ostriches while growing up crack me up to. Who has family like that. There are other stories but i don't want to bore you.

Randi's break up.
Hum, Randi is a friend of Sara(co-worker sara, not houston sara)that i met while helping Sara move (this sunday). Randi just recently got out of a relationship and is still healing from the break up. Well she bumped into another friend who was in the same position as her right before she saw us. As they were comparing notes she realized what a parallel her friends relationship(MC) was to her own. They both try to control people and how that control killed the fun in their relationships. At the end of the relationship her boyfriend said something to her "You keep trying to tell me how to love you. if you would just let me love you i would love you more than what you are asking." That hit me hard when she said that. Because it made me first think of God and then my relationships with other people.

Thursday evening I came to a screeching halt. At core it had nothing to do with people and everything to do with where i was with God. I shut down. I had fought the urge to withdraw all evening and finally i just gave in. i had to retreat. I needed to be alone. And i realized that i had not been alone in a long while... and i realized that i had not been alone with God in a way that matters in a long while... and i realized that i was using people and relationships to fill up what only God could fill up. Wait let me not lie i realized the rest of that from talking with trey and talking with randi.

I am grappling with two things right now, How to believe God that He is enough and how to love people. And for some reason this week the two are intertwined. Because i can not love well unless God is enough. And I don't believe God is enough when i make demands on people that only God can meet. I am still playing with this thought in my heart and mind.

But how do you love as Christ? I could write volumes on that... this weekend has been a growing weekend on that.

How do you realize that Christ is enough?

Yeah, well i would explore this more but i have to take my rubella self and my mother to the old house to go do some cleaning.

It’s good to grapple and see truth. And i am oddly excited to see what God is going to do. It will be grand. :)